Dear YOU,

You know what,

I have always been rehearsing whenever I have time the things I want to talk to you about.

I have practiced how to start the conversation.

I have already anticipated your answers, too.

But when it is time to execute all my plans, I just suddenly back out.

I do not know why.

Oh, I just do not know.

I hope I know why.

I have always wanted to talk to you.

Come on, you are like the most amiable person. You are close friends with everybody.

Well, except for me.

Or I think it was my fault why we are not close, why we do not hang out.

I always avoid you. I try not to go your way.

Why?

I also do not know.

Here I am saying that I have always wanted to talk to you, and hang out with you.

And then now, I am saying I avoid you.

I cannot even understand myself anymore.

You make me nervous. You make me tremble. I cannot even say a simple "How are you?", wherein people just blurt that out on you.

People would just hit you jokingly, and tease you.

And you are such a good sport. You just laugh with them.

I have always wanted to laugh with you. Of course, I would not hit or tease you just to laugh with you.

I have always wanted to have a descent, continuous conversation with you, with no distractions.

It is just that you are too friendly, you always have your friends with you all the time.

I am starting to sound selfish now, I know.

That is why I just let you be with them.

You will probably have more fun with them compared to being me anyway- what with all the nervousness, and trembling and stuttering. I also lose my train of thoughts when I look at you.

Oh, when I look you, I always see an angelic face with a smile and an aura which can launch my thousand ships,

which takes my breath away,

which brings a gush of blood right to my face.

xoxo