Why?

Why is it that everywhere I look, I see couples?

Holding hands.

Giving each other sweet kisses.

Hugging.

I try not to get jealous or envious,

I really do try,

but I just cannot help the feeling.

Being in my situation, oh, it is really hard to find your own partner.

And I think I am already ready to be in a serious relationship.

But it just won't happen.

I really try to be happy for all the couples I see,

I really do.

But the feeling of envy just overpowers the feeling of happiness.

I really hate it.

I am starting to hate the way I hate this situation.

I am starting to hate the way I hate things.

I should not be like this at all.

I am not even like this before.

But I just could not change it yet.

I just had to release all of these tension inside me first,

and maybe, I might stop being the hater I became now, which I should never ever be.


Signing off
xoxo